Enough Is Enough

My heart simply won’t let go doing it any other way, so it’s back to what works for me. As harsh as it may be, it’s what I must do to preserve who I am on the inside.

It Is What It Is

I've had it with men and relationships, it is what it is!

Honestly, I believe I’ve had enough of the vicious emotional games that most ghastly men try to play. From the foolish ones, those who think it’s okay for them to behave a certain way. . . .

Powerful

Yet again, no response when I reached out to Nicholas. What we once had was powerful and . . . .

My Bleeding Heart

Being in love with someone who is no longer in love with you should be easy to move past. However, for myself it’s impossible it seems. Lying to myself and stuffing emotions elsewhere didn’t work, because subconsciously it all was there under a brilliant script of excellent acting. When I heeded Nicks familiar voice on a personal video for the first time in 5 bleak months, I couldn’t contain it any longer. A distinctive sound not forgotten, rather blocked out to shelter myself from the unbearable pain of my bleeding heart.

Stronger Together

My sister Lou has not been herself lately. She retains it in her head that she’s the only one of mothers children who act like an adult. Who has to take care of her brother and sisters. Yeah, she takes care of my younger brother who is, well never mind. He’s not in this but if he were he’d be right up Lou’s ass. Regardless, she’s prancing around on a tall horse talking herself up as if she has to rescue and take care of her three siblings. This is ludicrous and bizarre thinking on her part.

Peek~A~Boo

Besides Wolfie and my ex, I can’t seem to get JP out of my mind. He too plays peek a boo in my thoughts daily. I’m thinking there was something between him and I that I squandered away. Not that I regret my decision, but I often question if he would have been in the United States would I have thrown what we had away?

Empty Words

So confident, but you’ll be surprised it took awhile, but I can finally recognize. I’m so much better off with someone else. . .