Nadia's Journal

April 4, 2020
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Goals and 1k Followers

As the numbers began to climb, I set my initial goal at 500 followers. Exactly 3 months later from the day I started using Instagram on March 16th I made it to my first set goal. For some reason I thought that every 500 followers gained would take 3 months since the first 500 followers required that long to obtain.

Nadia
April 4, 2020

April 3, 2020
anxious, bi-polar, catina, emotions or emotional, fear, friends, heart-ache, journaling, jp, lou lou, love, my car and issues, quarantine, quotes and poems, relationships, stress, strong confident beautiful woman, worrying
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My Wolfie

A tragic love story maybe, but that was it. Catina and I talked about how I felt for real about Wolfie. There’s no other way to describe my sincere feelings for him. Words do not express the gratitude, and love that I possess in my heart for this man. As we continued to talk, our conversation went from my feelings to Wolfman's feelings.

Nadia
April 3, 2020
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April 2, 2020
love, anxious, catina, coronavirus aftermath, coronavirus statistics, egotistical family, emotions or emotional, heart-ache, hope, journaling, lou lou, media, nadia mazonis, panicky, politics, quarantine, quotes and poems, relationships, wordpress.com website, worrying

Stronger Together

My sister Lou has not been herself lately. She retains it in her head that she’s the only one of mothers children who act like an adult. Who has to take care of her brother and sisters. Yeah, she takes care of my younger brother who is, well never mind. He’s not in this but if he were he’d be right up Lou’s ass. Regardless, she’s prancing around on a tall horse talking herself up as if she has to rescue and take care of her three siblings. This is ludicrous and bizarre thinking on her part.

Nadia
April 2, 2020

April 1, 2020
anxious, catina, coronavirus aftermath, coronavirus statistics, depression, egotistical family, emotions or emotional, fear, heart-ache, hope, lou lou, love, physical abuse, quarantine, quotes and poems, relationships, worrying

Peek~A~Boo

Besides Wolfie and my ex, I can’t seem to get JP out of my mind. He too plays peek a boo in my thoughts daily. I’m thinking there was something between him and I that I squandered away. Not that I regret my decision, but I often question if he would have been in the United States would I have thrown what we had away?

Nadia
April 1, 2020

April 1, 2020
catina, coronavirus aftermath, journaling, mental health, nightmares, quotes and poems

Whoosah

Image Credit: Pixabay Going to bed at 1 a.m. Monday morning and waking up at 4 a.m. Wednesday morning you’d think I was sufficiently set. Then why is it that all I can think about is passing back out? The first thing on my mind, when I finally became conscious, was this coronavirus and Wolfman. While I was asleep, I had a nightmare that my nephew who is in foster care contracted this horrible virus. Afraid…

Nadia
April 1, 2020

March 30, 2020
dead man walking, depression, journaling, love, narcissistic mother, worrying

Empty Words

So confident, but you'll be surprised it took awhile, but I can finally recognize. I'm so much better off with someone else. . .

Nadia
March 30, 2020

March 29, 2020
cabin fever, catina, depression, emotions or emotional, journaling, lou lou, love, memories, quotes and poems, relationships, wordpress.com website, worrying

Game Over

Both of these were forcing me to feel like a different person than I’ve been the past few weeks. Wolfie and I have been so happy and content with one another, why did my ex have to come in and mess that up for me? Last night when he sent me the photos I tried to act like they didn’t mean anything. Telling myself they were in fact a part of my past, but no longer represented my future.

Nadia
March 29, 2020