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journaling, dead man walking, emotions or emotional, fear, mental health

Defiant Ringmaster of the Awesome 1

white face clown big red nose im the ringmaster

Dive into the intriguing world of Nadia's Journal and learn valuable life lessons as you navigate the ups and downs of your own circus. Unlock the secrets of being the true ringmaster of your life.

Nadia
April 29, 2020

coronavirus aftermath, coronavirus covid-19, faith, fear, heart-ache, hope, journaling, love, media, nadia is feeling bad, nadia mazonis, quarantine, quotes and poems, stress, wordpress.com website, worrying

Evanescing Emotions

Swirling Smoke with butterflies fluttering about on a black back ground. The smoke represents evanescing into thin air.

After a two day relentless flood of excessive emotions and pent-up feelings, I evanesced into a world of technology and optimization. The familiar sound of a voice which caused the wound on my heart to bleed yesterday, happened to be the same sound today that comforted me. Why did William . . .

Nadia
April 12, 2020

anxious, cabin fever, catina, facebook, fcc, fear, friends, hope, journaling, jp, lou lou, love, media, nadia is feeling bad, nadia mazonis, ocd, panicky, quotes and poems, relationships, stress, therapy, therapy over the phone, worrying

3 Day Whirlwind

Good evening, it’s presently 9:35 p.m. on Monday the 6th of April. This journal entry is since Saturday the 4th, Sunday the 5th, and today Monday the 6th of April. It has been undoubtedly a whirlwind the past three days. Saturday and Sunday I felt completely lost, last night I dealt with many family dramas, and today has been chaos. I’m thinking people are starting to lose their flipping minds.

Nadia
April 6, 2020

anxious, bi-polar, catina, emotions or emotional, fear, friends, heart-ache, journaling, jp, lou lou, love, my car and issues, quarantine, quotes and poems, relationships, stress, strong confident beautiful woman, worrying

My Wolfie

A tragic love story maybe, but that was it. Catina and I talked about how I felt for real about Wolfie. There’s no other way to describe my sincere feelings for him. Words do not express the gratitude, and love that I possess in my heart for this man. As we continued to talk, our conversation went from my feelings to Wolfman's feelings.

Nadia
April 3, 2020
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anxious, catina, coronavirus aftermath, coronavirus statistics, depression, egotistical family, emotions or emotional, fear, heart-ache, hope, lou lou, love, physical abuse, quarantine, quotes and poems, relationships, worrying

Peek~A~Boo

Besides Wolfie and my ex, I can’t seem to get JP out of my mind. He too plays peek a boo in my thoughts daily. I’m thinking there was something between him and I that I squandered away. Not that I regret my decision, but I often question if he would have been in the United States would I have thrown what we had away?

Nadia
April 1, 2020

anxious, case manager, catina, coronavirus aftermath, coronavirus statistics, emotions or emotional, fear, journaling, lou lou, love, panic attack, quotes and poems, relationships, therapy over the phone, wordpress.com website

Do The Corona ~ Virus

There's a shortage of pretty much everything that you need or want in stores. Toilet paper, thermometers, milk, you name it, its out of stock. Now people are out of work, like my sister Lou and my nephew.

Nadia
March 28, 2020

case manager, coronavirus aftermath, emotions or emotional, fear, journaling, quotes and poems, relationships, stress, worrying

Music To My Ear

Hearing Wolfman’s voice for the first time caused me to want him even more. Not sexually, yeah maybe a little, but meaning I want him all to myself. Hearing his voice established him more of a person and not just a phone. He would also call again on his way home from the office, this time there were no nerves answering at all.

Nadia
March 26, 2020