Staying awake is the theme of today’s entry. Why is it so hard to keep my brain awake and functioning? I want to be awake, so I can deal with the things I need to, yet my brain wants to just shut down on me. I woke up at two a.m. only to go back to sleep because I just couldn’t concentrate. When it was time to go to therapy at nine a.m. I could barely even dial the number to cancel. I managed however, and went right back to sleep. When I finally was able to get up and stay up, the first thing I did was reschedule my therapy appointment. After that, my day seemed to be an alright day and for the most part was a good day.
I received a message from my ex, he was dealing with a problem that really didn’t concern me, so I told him that I was sorry that he was having to deal with it, and asked if there was anything else I could do to comfort him? I didn’t hear back, so I’m guessing that there wasn’t. I have to keep it short and to the point with him if I’m going to get better myself. It’s really hard being this way, but I’m on a mission to move on and get over him, so this is the new way I’m going to handle any future contact I have with him. If there’s something I can do to help, I will, if not I’m going to go about my day. On a side note though I will say Karma is a stinker.
I actually left the house today!! I went down to my sister’s house to visit, I drove myself to McDonald’s for some much-needed grub, and helped out my neighbor who was sick. I ran her to the store to pick up some medicine. I haven’t had much to do with these neighbors since my ex left because of so many reasons, but I have been thinking it’s time I forgive and forget since I do live right next door to them. By the end of the night I went over to their house to hang out which I haven’t done in a very long time. I learned one thing while I was over there too. Don’t bring up or talk about politics with them. I found myself face to face with a screaming crazed person. NEVER AGAIN!! It was pretty nice to get out of the house, and I’m going to try to start doing it more often. Even my sister-in-law said she could tell I was in a better mood. I won’t lie, the reason why was because of the reason my ex reached out to me. It still cracks me up.
As soon as my sister-in-law went to work I laid down. I was out like a light before I could count to ten.
